Music Therapy

Honestly I cannot really say what this was meant to be (creative therapy was way fun). We got in to the room for the session, patients students and doctors, some very soothing music was played for about five mins, then we went up tempo :-), the music was switched up to some very playful  tune, like something you would hear in a silly cartoon. we listened to it for about 10 to 15 mins. The music made me feel like dancing and laughing, but since no one was, I just nodded my head a bit and smiled.. ha ha.. Then the worst came for the next 45 mins there was a discussion with the patients in Hungarian. this was serious torture as I did not understand a single thing and had to sit there  (like a moron), because it would have been so rude to walk out. They were laughing and talking and yours truly just looked.
The other day I went for a large group session where doctors, patients and students sit to discuss (a larger group than the music therapy group), and for one hour I had to sit there not understanding anything. Seriously this is real torture, whats even worst is that no one explains anything to you after (well I should have ask rite? yeah rite like they would explain an hour session to a bloody medical student). This language barrier is really getting to me, it puts a big barrier in front of my learning. And for a career like medicine, especially in the psychiatry ward, communication is key to learning.. So tell me how can I learn?
Advice to anyone who is yet to go study medicine (Don't), go where you fully understand the language. If you are like me already in a foreign speaking language country, learn the language. and if you are more like me that after 5 years you realize ooh I should have learned the language. Well its too late so bare it.. (note, I have no regrets coming here).

P.S
If you have the ability to hear and understand/ make sense of what is being said be grateful. There is a medical condition where patients have the inability to understand spoken language (kinda like me today) which they normally understood before.. How frustrating.

love,

Schizophrenia

This is one of the mis-understood disease I know of, thanks to the movies. Also it is one of the most diagnosed and sometimes mis-diagnosed disease in psychiatry. Almost every patient that walks into the physician's office in psychiatry had/has a bizarre behavior. In fact most people would only send someone to psychiatry due to bizarre behaviors.. Yes they do have bizarre behaviors but not everyone with a bizarre behavior is schizophrenic.

So I sit down in the clinic today and almost every patient that walks in, is diagnosed with schizophrenia or at least schizophrenia is a differential diagnosis(not a big surprise). Despite all my previous training on schizophrenia, I have seen too many movies and heard so many ideas of schizophrenia that I still have a hard time grasping the truth of this disease, so I find it quite hard to relate when I see a patient who doesn't fit all this funny Ideas I have about schizophrenia and I am being told "this is a case of schizophrenia".. But I don't think am the only one who has this problem, because my tutor seems to emphasize, "if a patient comes in with a bizarre behavior, dig deep it isn't necessarily a schizophrenic case". hmmmmmm for one to lay emphasis on something means a lot of people make that mistake.. So am I excused?? well NO..

My question is how do you change a belief you have had for a long time?? How easy do you think it is? Because studying medicine dose that, it try's to change most of the ideas/beliefs you've always had about a lot of things (again thanks to the movies and TV shows). Imagine how my mind runs back and forth when am in such situations.

Here are some common Ideas People have about schizophrenics:

• They have more than one personality; well they have only one personality although their personality may be disturbed.
• They are 'mad'; yes it is true schizophrenics will sometimes act in a strange way, but most often they behave quite normally.
• They are violent and dangerous; some schizophrenics may become violent if the are very angry and frustrated, but they are usually timid, fearful and quite. As matter of fact don't non schizophrenics get violent when very frustrated and angry.

This are drawing from Louis Wain an artist who slid into schizophrenia

Schizophrenia refers to personality problems where the individual may have difficulty deciding what is real and what is not real. Schizophrenia is a bit like having a dream when you are wide awake — you are unsure whether the events in the dream are really happening to you or not.

Keep smiling, love